Leap into joy
I can't remember exactly the year. I went to Billy Graham Training Center for SSD, and then I returned the year after for Next Step. I listened to Larry taught on Jonah and cried my heart each morning. I took away one thing on SSD – jump off the cliff means to take a leap of faith. I began to realize that I was like that – keep walking in a circle and dare not try. I never try to jump into the Father's arm. I was confronted that I did not trust Jesus enough to do so. It was about almost one and a half years before I return for the Next Step. My heart was filled with unspeakable joy. I am a very serious person who doesn't usually joke around. But, I was surprised at the banquet on the last day of the retreat. The words of joy flew out of my mouth that brought laughter to the audience. Later, Larry approached me and gently and jokingly said, "Do you want to dance?" I was caught in surprise and thought to myself, "How can I dance with a man other than my husband?" So I sternly rejected him. I feel regret up to this day for not accepting his invitation.
Even to this day, I am still learning to "jump off the cliff" every day, though it takes different forms. I won't forget that it was Larry's teaching that taught me to take the first step.